CR@VINGS...

{This one is not ex@ctly "my style"..
...u m@y consider it just @s scribblingz.....}

ITS LOST..
H@S BEEN LONG..
IM NOT TRYING TO FIND IT...
IM JUST CR@VING..
& LONGING B@D...
TO BE IN LOVE @G@IN...
FOR ME ITS U..
U KNW IT WELL...
BUT STILL U S@Y..
I LOVE SOMEONE ELSE...
IM JUST CR@VING...
HE@DING NO WHERE...
W@NTING TO HOLD U @G@IN..
ITS WINTER...
@L@S!!
WE'VE BEEN W@ITING..
FOR IT TO COME...
TO REDEFINE...
OUR LOVE & P@SSION...
BUT HERE IM..
CR@VING...
TO KISS U....
U KNOW HOW IT FEELS...
U KNOW IT WELL!
STILL U CHOSE..
TO BE @W@Y...
I KNOW IT WHY...
W@NN@ SEE ME CR@VING...
CR@VING FOR U..
DYING TO MEET U...
U KNOW IT GETS..
ON MY NERVES...
I C@NT ST@ND IT...
THE NIGHT @LONE...
WITH MOON SO BRIGHT...
& THE WIND BLLOWING..
& I C@NT SLEEP...
SLEEP WITHOUT U...
STILL U M@KE...
M@KE ME CR@VE...
FOR @LL THESE THINGZ...
THINGZ I THOUGHT...
WILL BE MINE..
MINE FOREVER...
BUT HERE U R ...
M@KING ME CR@VE...
CR@VE FOR U...
& FOREVER....

LOVE D@DDY!!

This poem of mine is dedic@ted to love of my life..my f@ther figure..whom i c@ll D@ddy!! This one is for u....

LIVING FOR 21 YRS
DIDNT KNW WHR TO GO..
@LL SO PERPLEXED
SO VERY CONFUSED
LETTING THE TIME FLOW..

PPL CME & WENT..
HURTED,LOVED,ENJOYED..
PUSHED,PULLED,H@D FUN..
FRIENDS,STR@NGERS,P@SSERS..
S@YING..BYE FOREVR!!LEAVE!!GO!..

W@LKING ,WILTING & DYING..
L@UGHING,CRYING..LETTING GO..
DIDNT KNW WT I W@S CR@VING FOR..
TILL U CME TO SHOW..

U SMILED HELD MY H@ND..
TOLD ME WT W@S RIGHT..
KEPT @W@Y MY SORROWS..
HUGGED ME SO TIGHT...

T@UGT ME HOW TO W@LK..
WHN THE RO@DS TURN DOWN..
T@UGHT ME HOW TO L@UGH..
WHN THE WORLD REFLECTS..FROWNS..

YOU L@YED @W@KE FOR ME..
EVEN @FTER I FELL @SLEEP..
SO TH@T DRE@MS DONT H@UNT ME..
I DONT GET UP & WEEP....

C@NT LIVE WITHOUT U D@DDY..
C@NT SLEEP WITHOUT UR LOVE..
C@NT W@LK WITHOUT UR HAND D@DDY..
C@NT SEE WITHOUT U TO SHOW..

THIS B@BY OF UR'S D@DDY..
PROMISES TO BE IN LOVE..
TILL TIME LE@DS TO ETERNITY..
WE'LL FLY LIKE DOVE..

THE OTHER SIDE-OF LIFE & ME

YOU TOLD EVERYONE WT U FELT..
& STORIES OF WT U NEVER MEANT..
@LL LIES WITH NO LIFE..
& THEY BELIEVED U..
COZ THEY NEVER KNW..
WTZ MY P@RT ..
THE OTHER SIDE....

I DONT C@RE @BT THE MORONS..
DONT GIVE @ D@MN @BT UR SL@VES..
COZ I KNW HOW EVERYONE IS..
WILL SCR@TCH UR SOUL..
WHEN U TURN @W@Y..
U SN@TCHED MY FRNDS FRM ME..
ITS TIME FOR THEM TO KNOW..
THE OTHER SIDE....

U M@DE @ S@D F@CE..
PRETENDED TO BE HE@RT BROKEN..
DREW @ BITCH OUT OF ME..
@S IF U R FRM HE@VEN..
TOLD THEM..@HH! HOW I HURT U..
HOW I BETR@YED & CHE@TED..
BUT WT U DIDNT TOLD..
IS WT I'LL BE TELLING..
THE OTHER SIDE....

HONEY!U TOLD THEM U CRIED FOR ME..
WHERE WERE U WHEN I DID???????????
U SAY U LOVED ME..
SO WTZ IT TH@T I DID????????????????
ITS MY NATURE TO FOOL PPL?????????
@S IF U R @ S@INT..
IM NOT HERE TO BL@ME U B@BY BOY!
BT THIS IS HOW IT IS..
THE OTHER SIDE....

U M@Y S@Y U FED ME..
WHERE WERE U WHEN I ST@RVED????
U M@Y S@Y U C@RED FOR ME..BUT..
H@HH ! PLZ JOKES @P@RT!
I W@S @LW@YS LIKE @ TISSUE..
FOR U TO FUCK & RUB-WIPE..
THEN U S@Y WT @ WHORE IM..
ON THE OTHER SIDE..

U TOLD TH@T U SPENT ON ME???
WHO'Z GONN@ P@Y FOR MY LOVE??
MY TIME?MY FEELINGS?MY EMOTIONZ?
VIRGINITY?ITS NOT @ FUN!
PRICELESS U WERE FOR ME..
I W@S CR@ZY FOR UR EYES..
MILLIONS & ZILLIONS @RE LESS..
FOR SENTIMENTS..
THIS IS THE OTHER SIDE....

U MUST'VE CRIED IN FRONT OF F@MILY..
& EVERYONE I RESPECT..
M@DE ME LOOK UGLY..
"NYMPHO" @S I C@N C@LL BEST..
U R NOT @N @NGEL DE@R..
U TORTURED ME..BUT I SURVIVED..
THAT BOLD IM ACTUALLY..
ON THE OTHER SIDE....

U M@DE MY FRNDS GO @G@INST ME..
ONES WHO WERE SO DEAR..
W@LKED @W@Y F@R FRM ME..WHO WERE SO NE@R..
TH@NKS!I C@ME TO KNOW..
THEY WERE MICE RUNNING @W@Y FRM FE@R..
C@LL ME @N IDIOT..
BUT THEY @RE B@CK TO ME..
ON THE OTHER SIDE....

U THOUGHT U'VE CRUSHED ME..
KILLED MY SOUL? I'VE DIED?..
BUT HEY SWINE HERE I ST@ND..
S@ME @S YESTERD@Y..MORE FINE!..
TH@TZ COZ OF @ LOVED ONE,MOM,& LORD..
THEY PROVIDED ME STRENGTH-LOVE SWORD..
H@H!PITY ON U LOOSER..IM H@PPY!
THE OTHER SIDE....

D@RLING U G@INED SYMP@THY..
WT @ BLOODY G@ME U PL@YED..
BUT @S I S@Y ITS DESTINY ..
"I" REM@IN THE S@ME..
STRONG!..CONFIDENT!..& LOVABLE..
TH@TS WT U C@NT SEE..?..
I W@NT GIRLY SHOULDERS TO CRY..
U ENJOY THEM..?THEY @RE FREE..

SO FOLKS..FRNDS THIS IS MY RE@LITY..
@ STRONG G@L WHO SURVIVED..
LOVED..LOST..& STOOD INSULTS..
NEVER SHED @ "CRY"..
IF TH@T M@KES ME @ BITCH..
ITS OK WITH ME..IM FINE..
ENJOY UR BL@NKET DELIC@TE D@RLINGZ..
THIS IS MY OTHER SIDE!.....

I DIDNT KNOW

When the first i met u..
U seemed @n ordin@ry guy..
Th@t time i didnt know..
U r one to m@ke me fly....

U r voice which s@id "Hello"..
St@ble..Confident..yet sweet..
Th@t time i didnt know..
It'll become my he@rt be@t....

I noticed ur eyes very first..
Shining..brown @nd deep..
Th@t time i didnt know..
For me they r gonn@ weep....

H@nds of urs which fed me..
Strong..m@nly yet gentel..
Th@t time i didnt know..
They @re gonn@ hold me everytime i stumble....

first time when i w@lked with u..
F@st..p@nting still together..
Th@t time i didnt know..
We r gonn@ w@lk like this FOREVER.......

REQUEST

Im w@iting p@tiently..
Till the time turns de@dly..
Hoping-Let tod@y s@dly..
I'll spend tomorrow h@ppily.

I tried @ lot but cudnt ctrl..
& te@rs they just rolled..
They 'll dry whn u'll hold..
me in ur arms,cries sold.


De@f is my he@rt..
Dumb is my soul..
When we'll meet,will be yule..
Stub,stubby tod@y is ur strum..
Thn @lso if u didnt come..
Sum @ll sink in my sunk.

My love for u is such @ MYSTERY..
Which i dont w@nn@ be @n unfold history..
@s wud be @ deep injury..
& frm my blood ur he@rt will bury.

Inexpressible,inf@llible is my love expression..
Bet me life..
@ de@th knife...
Its not inf@tu@tion.

Sw@yed by ur love sentiment..
Yes,i w@s sentient..
"Love u" w@s thought wt u me@nt..
But u w@nted my he@rt on rent.

My he@rt w@s urs yesterd@y..
But i w@nt it tod@y..
It w@snt something to pl@y..
But lemme see the love r@y.

Give me @ ch@nce to survive..
@ll my emotions pls revive..
Let me 've @ deep dive..
Hold me tight with love @live.

Thougts which @re in my he@rt..
@re they finding d@wn c@rt?..
OF endless loving night..
Holding e@ch other in moonlight.

Moving together @round the l@ke..
Wt @ love we used to m@ke..
Come b@ck for my s@ke..
Dont let my he@rt br@ke.

Singing wind..the d@ncing flower..
Cresent moon..but full of power..
By cupid-love shower..
Lets be together..till l@st hour.

GOD LISTEN TO MY REQUEST..
WITH HIM LEMME SPEND THE LIFE-REST..
ON THIS THR SHUD BE NO QUEST..
HE'LL H@VE MY LOVE'S BEST.

PROMISE

Promise to be with mw @lw@ys..
From 1st sun r@ys..
Till end of my d@ys..
"Only Me" t@ke no other w@ys.

World @round me w@nts to stop..
Love in me is wt they dont spot..
In u im c@ught..
For u on e@rth i w@s brought.

Promise me love outflow..
or give me @ de@th blow..
How much it @ffect lemme show..
Will u offer rose in my gr@ve row?..

Nota-bene my l@st note,without notion..
My he@rt W@S full of emotion..
No whr noxius..null or dull..
But w@s unsolved numeric@l.

Which included the seconds we spent together..
with music in @ir..
@nd cold we@ther..
Tell me do u still remember..
The promise of love..
& l@st summer.

IF U C@RE

When we met..
W@s the 1st shot..
Though the dur@tion w@s short..
But we tied @ knot..
& now i love u @lot..
But "someone" w@nted us to be @p@rt..
Cries & blood from my broken he@rt..
"Hit on eye" by d@rt..
Divided into two p@rts..
The one with u is truly me..
One here is busy bee..
With u i @lw@ys w@nn@ be..
In love..h@ppy..merry..& gee..
I w@nn@ feel the smell of ur scent..
Wt for me u me@nt..
I c@nt live without u..
re@lly c@nt.....
Little things of love & c@re..
For being @p@rt i w@s never prep@re..
Tortoise won lost the h@re..
Venom is now i c@n d@re..
I just turn to find u thr..
Whr we met & i do be@r..
Only memories & rest lost in @ir..
Come to me if u c@re....

L@ST NIGHT

When the winds blew @g@in tonight..
& i s@w fl@shing of light..
I rem. the d@ys when u held me tight..
I w@nt th@t old love sight.

L@st night w@s s@me @s tod@y..
But i w@s h@ppy in love yesterd@y..
Now not even God listens to my pr@y..
So,how'll u know wt i w@nn@ s@y.

I didnt ch@nge,i rem@in the s@me..
But my love for u w@s @ g@me..
@s l@st night when u c@lled my n@me..
Te@rs in my eyes w@s ur @im.

I still c@n feel the sweet smell..
& ur @rms on which i fell..
Night tod@y is like hell..
Tell me will this ever get well?

I w@nn@ ch@nge the direction of wind..
Stop the time & press rewind..
I request God to be kind..
& t@ke me @ few d@ys behind.

Hold me tight..just hold me tight..
So,th@t i c@nt feel the light..
& spend the whole night..
Loving me..m@ke me feel @lright.

Roses H@ve Dried

H@ppening of the unexpected..
@ turn our lives took..
Nightm@re turned into re@lity..
U w@lked @w@y without 2nd look.

107 d@ys without you..
Nothing seemed to 've ch@nged..
Im still longing to hold you..
But u @re eng@ged.

Moon still t@lks to me..
Tells me you @re sleeping..
I dont think it tells u @nything..
Else u wud've known im weeping.

Pl@ces where u took me..
St@nd the w@y they were..
I've been there @ll @lone..
Though i promised without u i'll never.

Gifts which u g@ve me..
@re @ll coverd with dust..
Like the ch@in of my love..
Not broken,its just rust.

Pictures of our together..
H@ve still not f@ded..
Memories of love..
@re still not grey sh@ded.

Sun still sets with be@uty..
Hugs the mighty l@ke..
Thoughts of our eve w@lks..
Keeps me night @w@ke..

Clouds turn the sky d@rk..
R@in w@shes my blue..
This is when i w@nt u..
U @lw@ys h@d @ clue.

Nothing seemed to 've ch@nged..
Even the w@y i've cried..
Only U 've w@lked @way..
& the roses u g@ve 've dried.