where did "I" go??????

Since 22 years it was all right..perfect me..n my perfect life..
n now at the age of 25 its all such a mess...
if i look at my life from a distance of say 7 meters it look ahh so perfect still...
but tell u what the "I" factor is gone...
being deeply in love has done blunders in my life n has given me pain which is etched though my heart n can never be rubbed off...
but this second shot which i took is turning out to be a bigger mess....
phew!
the frog turned into prince charming n then jumped into well coz he was a frog after all!!!!!
well the strengths of my character ... my personality...my persona ...n everything about me is gone...i dont have friends to share my feeling {omg he is possessive}.... i dont have any hobbies {he thought i was wasting time n i aint good enough} .... my parents dont have faith in me like before {sweet lord they still pretend though}....ambition is gone...passion..devotion..dedication for my self turned towards a filthy person who does not deserved it n to be frank really didnt even understand meaning of all these words..oh he is indeed dumb!
can love be this blind???
i am practical enough to write this down ... but not sane enough to kick his ass outta my life??
After all it my life ..is nt it????
i call it mess these days!

& the reason i call it love...{bite me!!}