ST@RTS WITH DE@TH...

"THIS ONE IS FOR MY BE@UTIFUL..WONDERFUL..N@UGHTY "CHIEF".. MY BL@CK L@BR@DOR..WHOM I LOVED FROM CORE OF MY HE@RT..& I DIDNT KNOW THIS TILL HE DIED @T @N E@RLY @GE OF 2..THIS MORNING.."

LOVE IS NOT THE OTHER WORD FOR LIFE..
@S LOVE CONTINUES TO ST@Y..
& GROW..
EVEN WHEN LIFE ENDS..
LOVE W@S WHEN I TOOK C@RE...
SPENT SLEEPLESS NIGHT NEXT TO YOU..
YOU WERE ILL..
YOU WERE SICK..
I W@NTED YOU TO ST@Y..
I W@NTED YOU TO KNOW..
HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU...
I FOUND EVERY POSSIBLE W@Y..
BUT YOU LEFT..
WHILE I W@S @SLEEP..
I SLEPT THINKING OF YOU GETTING WELL..
OF YOU & ME TOGETHER @G@IN...
BUT YOU DIDNT G@VE ME CH@NCE..
YOUR EYES WERE OPEN WHEN U LEFT..
WERE YOU LOOKING FOR ME????
I COULD NEVER KISS YOU..
EVEN WHEN YOU KISSED ME..
YOU NEVER TOLD ME YOU @RE SOOO FULL OF LOVE...
YOU H@D SO MUCH TO SH@RE..
TO SHOW EVEN YOU C@RED..
I LOVED THE W@Y YOUR EYES TWINKLED...
@CROSS MY SOUL..
I LOVED THE W@Y U W@ITED TO BE..
HOLD..
I NEVER KNEW I LOVED YOU..
COZ IT ST@RTED WITH YOUR DE@TH....

I AM SORRY CHIEFY I COULDNT SAVE YOU..
U KNOW ME & PAPA CRIED A LOT...
WE ARE MISSING U..
YES BABY IM MISSING YOU..
MISSING YOU LOTS..
WISH I COULD PRESSSS REVIND & GET U BACK TO ME & PAPA..
PAPA LOVES U BOY..
I LOVE U TOO..
BE HAPPY WHERE EVER YOU ARE..
YOU ARE THE BEST BABY..MY SWEET CHIEFY
& NO ONE WILL EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE HONEY...
I AM SORRY I COULDNOT SAVE U...
LOVE YOU...

ST@MPED

PEOPLE S@Y I @M HE@RTLESS..
I @M SOMEONE WITH NO FEELINGS...
SOMEONE WITH NO EMOTIONS..
ITS C@USE EVERYTIME I TRIED TO..
EXPRESS MYSELF TO YOU..
YOU WERENT THERE...
& I @M ST@MPED...
ST@MPED @S HE@RTLESS...

PEOPLE S@Y I @M SH@MELESS..
I @M SOMEONE IDIOTIC@LLY BOLD..
SOMEONE WITH STUPID D@RINGS..
ITS C@USE EVERYTIME I TRIED TO..
HIDE MYSELF BEHIND YOU...
YOU WERENT THERE...
& I@M ST@MPED...
ST@MPED @S SH@MELESS...

PEOPLE S@Y I @M PR@CTIC@L..
I @M SOMEONE WITH NO DEM@NDS..
SOMEONE WITH NO EXPECT@TIONS...
ITS C@USE EVERYTIME I H@D...
HOPES FROM YOU...
YOU SH@TTERED THEM...
& I @M ST@MPED...
ST@MPED @S PR@CTIC@L...

PEOPLE S@Y I @M SERIOUS...
I DONT KNOW SMILE..
SOMEONE WITH NO HUMOR...
ITS COZ EVERY TIME I TRIED TO..
H@VE @ JOY..TO BE H@PPY...
YOU HURTED ME...
& @M ST@MPED...
ST@MPED @S SERIOUS....

PEOPLE S@Y I @M RUDE..
I DONT W@YS TO PLE@SE..
SOMEONE WITH NO M@NNERS...
ITS COZ EVERY TIME I WISHED TO...
PLE@SE YOU..TO M@KE YOU H@PPY..
YOU W@LKED OUTT@ PL@CE..
& I @M ST@MPED...
ST@MPED @S RUDE....

& THEY ITS @LL MY F@ULT!!!

CR@VINGS...

{This one is not ex@ctly "my style"..
...u m@y consider it just @s scribblingz.....}

ITS LOST..
H@S BEEN LONG..
IM NOT TRYING TO FIND IT...
IM JUST CR@VING..
& LONGING B@D...
TO BE IN LOVE @G@IN...
FOR ME ITS U..
U KNW IT WELL...
BUT STILL U S@Y..
I LOVE SOMEONE ELSE...
IM JUST CR@VING...
HE@DING NO WHERE...
W@NTING TO HOLD U @G@IN..
ITS WINTER...
@L@S!!
WE'VE BEEN W@ITING..
FOR IT TO COME...
TO REDEFINE...
OUR LOVE & P@SSION...
BUT HERE IM..
CR@VING...
TO KISS U....
U KNOW HOW IT FEELS...
U KNOW IT WELL!
STILL U CHOSE..
TO BE @W@Y...
I KNOW IT WHY...
W@NN@ SEE ME CR@VING...
CR@VING FOR U..
DYING TO MEET U...
U KNOW IT GETS..
ON MY NERVES...
I C@NT ST@ND IT...
THE NIGHT @LONE...
WITH MOON SO BRIGHT...
& THE WIND BLLOWING..
& I C@NT SLEEP...
SLEEP WITHOUT U...
STILL U M@KE...
M@KE ME CR@VE...
FOR @LL THESE THINGZ...
THINGZ I THOUGHT...
WILL BE MINE..
MINE FOREVER...
BUT HERE U R ...
M@KING ME CR@VE...
CR@VE FOR U...
& FOREVER....

LOVE D@DDY!!

This poem of mine is dedic@ted to love of my life..my f@ther figure..whom i c@ll D@ddy!! This one is for u....

LIVING FOR 21 YRS
DIDNT KNW WHR TO GO..
@LL SO PERPLEXED
SO VERY CONFUSED
LETTING THE TIME FLOW..

PPL CME & WENT..
HURTED,LOVED,ENJOYED..
PUSHED,PULLED,H@D FUN..
FRIENDS,STR@NGERS,P@SSERS..
S@YING..BYE FOREVR!!LEAVE!!GO!..

W@LKING ,WILTING & DYING..
L@UGHING,CRYING..LETTING GO..
DIDNT KNW WT I W@S CR@VING FOR..
TILL U CME TO SHOW..

U SMILED HELD MY H@ND..
TOLD ME WT W@S RIGHT..
KEPT @W@Y MY SORROWS..
HUGGED ME SO TIGHT...

T@UGT ME HOW TO W@LK..
WHN THE RO@DS TURN DOWN..
T@UGHT ME HOW TO L@UGH..
WHN THE WORLD REFLECTS..FROWNS..

YOU L@YED @W@KE FOR ME..
EVEN @FTER I FELL @SLEEP..
SO TH@T DRE@MS DONT H@UNT ME..
I DONT GET UP & WEEP....

C@NT LIVE WITHOUT U D@DDY..
C@NT SLEEP WITHOUT UR LOVE..
C@NT W@LK WITHOUT UR HAND D@DDY..
C@NT SEE WITHOUT U TO SHOW..

THIS B@BY OF UR'S D@DDY..
PROMISES TO BE IN LOVE..
TILL TIME LE@DS TO ETERNITY..
WE'LL FLY LIKE DOVE..

THE OTHER SIDE-OF LIFE & ME

YOU TOLD EVERYONE WT U FELT..
& STORIES OF WT U NEVER MEANT..
@LL LIES WITH NO LIFE..
& THEY BELIEVED U..
COZ THEY NEVER KNW..
WTZ MY P@RT ..
THE OTHER SIDE....

I DONT C@RE @BT THE MORONS..
DONT GIVE @ D@MN @BT UR SL@VES..
COZ I KNW HOW EVERYONE IS..
WILL SCR@TCH UR SOUL..
WHEN U TURN @W@Y..
U SN@TCHED MY FRNDS FRM ME..
ITS TIME FOR THEM TO KNOW..
THE OTHER SIDE....

U M@DE @ S@D F@CE..
PRETENDED TO BE HE@RT BROKEN..
DREW @ BITCH OUT OF ME..
@S IF U R FRM HE@VEN..
TOLD THEM..@HH! HOW I HURT U..
HOW I BETR@YED & CHE@TED..
BUT WT U DIDNT TOLD..
IS WT I'LL BE TELLING..
THE OTHER SIDE....

HONEY!U TOLD THEM U CRIED FOR ME..
WHERE WERE U WHEN I DID???????????
U SAY U LOVED ME..
SO WTZ IT TH@T I DID????????????????
ITS MY NATURE TO FOOL PPL?????????
@S IF U R @ S@INT..
IM NOT HERE TO BL@ME U B@BY BOY!
BT THIS IS HOW IT IS..
THE OTHER SIDE....

U M@Y S@Y U FED ME..
WHERE WERE U WHEN I ST@RVED????
U M@Y S@Y U C@RED FOR ME..BUT..
H@HH ! PLZ JOKES @P@RT!
I W@S @LW@YS LIKE @ TISSUE..
FOR U TO FUCK & RUB-WIPE..
THEN U S@Y WT @ WHORE IM..
ON THE OTHER SIDE..

U TOLD TH@T U SPENT ON ME???
WHO'Z GONN@ P@Y FOR MY LOVE??
MY TIME?MY FEELINGS?MY EMOTIONZ?
VIRGINITY?ITS NOT @ FUN!
PRICELESS U WERE FOR ME..
I W@S CR@ZY FOR UR EYES..
MILLIONS & ZILLIONS @RE LESS..
FOR SENTIMENTS..
THIS IS THE OTHER SIDE....

U MUST'VE CRIED IN FRONT OF F@MILY..
& EVERYONE I RESPECT..
M@DE ME LOOK UGLY..
"NYMPHO" @S I C@N C@LL BEST..
U R NOT @N @NGEL DE@R..
U TORTURED ME..BUT I SURVIVED..
THAT BOLD IM ACTUALLY..
ON THE OTHER SIDE....

U M@DE MY FRNDS GO @G@INST ME..
ONES WHO WERE SO DEAR..
W@LKED @W@Y F@R FRM ME..WHO WERE SO NE@R..
TH@NKS!I C@ME TO KNOW..
THEY WERE MICE RUNNING @W@Y FRM FE@R..
C@LL ME @N IDIOT..
BUT THEY @RE B@CK TO ME..
ON THE OTHER SIDE....

U THOUGHT U'VE CRUSHED ME..
KILLED MY SOUL? I'VE DIED?..
BUT HEY SWINE HERE I ST@ND..
S@ME @S YESTERD@Y..MORE FINE!..
TH@TZ COZ OF @ LOVED ONE,MOM,& LORD..
THEY PROVIDED ME STRENGTH-LOVE SWORD..
H@H!PITY ON U LOOSER..IM H@PPY!
THE OTHER SIDE....

D@RLING U G@INED SYMP@THY..
WT @ BLOODY G@ME U PL@YED..
BUT @S I S@Y ITS DESTINY ..
"I" REM@IN THE S@ME..
STRONG!..CONFIDENT!..& LOVABLE..
TH@TS WT U C@NT SEE..?..
I W@NT GIRLY SHOULDERS TO CRY..
U ENJOY THEM..?THEY @RE FREE..

SO FOLKS..FRNDS THIS IS MY RE@LITY..
@ STRONG G@L WHO SURVIVED..
LOVED..LOST..& STOOD INSULTS..
NEVER SHED @ "CRY"..
IF TH@T M@KES ME @ BITCH..
ITS OK WITH ME..IM FINE..
ENJOY UR BL@NKET DELIC@TE D@RLINGZ..
THIS IS MY OTHER SIDE!.....

I DIDNT KNOW

When the first i met u..
U seemed @n ordin@ry guy..
Th@t time i didnt know..
U r one to m@ke me fly....

U r voice which s@id "Hello"..
St@ble..Confident..yet sweet..
Th@t time i didnt know..
It'll become my he@rt be@t....

I noticed ur eyes very first..
Shining..brown @nd deep..
Th@t time i didnt know..
For me they r gonn@ weep....

H@nds of urs which fed me..
Strong..m@nly yet gentel..
Th@t time i didnt know..
They @re gonn@ hold me everytime i stumble....

first time when i w@lked with u..
F@st..p@nting still together..
Th@t time i didnt know..
We r gonn@ w@lk like this FOREVER.......

REQUEST

Im w@iting p@tiently..
Till the time turns de@dly..
Hoping-Let tod@y s@dly..
I'll spend tomorrow h@ppily.

I tried @ lot but cudnt ctrl..
& te@rs they just rolled..
They 'll dry whn u'll hold..
me in ur arms,cries sold.


De@f is my he@rt..
Dumb is my soul..
When we'll meet,will be yule..
Stub,stubby tod@y is ur strum..
Thn @lso if u didnt come..
Sum @ll sink in my sunk.

My love for u is such @ MYSTERY..
Which i dont w@nn@ be @n unfold history..
@s wud be @ deep injury..
& frm my blood ur he@rt will bury.

Inexpressible,inf@llible is my love expression..
Bet me life..
@ de@th knife...
Its not inf@tu@tion.

Sw@yed by ur love sentiment..
Yes,i w@s sentient..
"Love u" w@s thought wt u me@nt..
But u w@nted my he@rt on rent.

My he@rt w@s urs yesterd@y..
But i w@nt it tod@y..
It w@snt something to pl@y..
But lemme see the love r@y.

Give me @ ch@nce to survive..
@ll my emotions pls revive..
Let me 've @ deep dive..
Hold me tight with love @live.

Thougts which @re in my he@rt..
@re they finding d@wn c@rt?..
OF endless loving night..
Holding e@ch other in moonlight.

Moving together @round the l@ke..
Wt @ love we used to m@ke..
Come b@ck for my s@ke..
Dont let my he@rt br@ke.

Singing wind..the d@ncing flower..
Cresent moon..but full of power..
By cupid-love shower..
Lets be together..till l@st hour.

GOD LISTEN TO MY REQUEST..
WITH HIM LEMME SPEND THE LIFE-REST..
ON THIS THR SHUD BE NO QUEST..
HE'LL H@VE MY LOVE'S BEST.